Light and darkness, turning and letting go

Light and darkness
Stranded in the deathly darkness,
searching for a way out,
looking for the light,
to guide me to a better life,
I feel that im searching,
in all the wrong places,
and the light is no where to be found,
I know that it exists,
I've seen glimses before,
felt its warmth,
and known its peace,
but these times never last long,
the darkness returns,
and with it comes the pain,
the fear and the uglyness,
will it ever end?
will i ever be free?
will i know a God,
that offers life,
and gives it meaning,
happiness and love...
I hear its within me,
but it must be burried deep,
as rarely do i find it,
or even believe in it at times.


Turning
Im turning to the light,
turning to find God,
but all this turning,
is leading to crazy circles,
making me dizzy,
confused and angry,
If God's so prefect...
shouldn't he be easier to find?
In a world so broken,
you'd think he'd stick out,
i guess he does though,
In the lives of those who know him,
I see the difference,
and long for it too.

Salvation
"If you confess with your mouth "Jesus is Lord" and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
-Romans 10:9

"Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved"
-Acts 2:21

"For i am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demonds, neither the present or the future, nor any powers, neither hight nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
-Romans 8:21

I've heard it all before,
i understand it,
i can remmeber it,
i KNOW its true,
why do i still doubt?
Why do i question my salvation?
wonder about God's love...
worry about my life...
i guess the heart bit gets me...
BELIEVE in your HEART...
heart stuff is so hard,
always getting confused with emotion,
How do i know for sure?
The bible says it...
why is it so hard to grasp?



Holding on and letting go
In the that time between,
holding on and letting go,
theres so much pain,
confusion overwhelms,
we are thrown around,
God's calling us to him,
but we must let go,
let go of the world,
and to the devils ways,
it takes a lot of courage,
and it doesn't happen quickly,
when we let go we fall,
but thats not always bad,
if we're trusting God,
we will fall into his arms,
and then we can hold on,
hold on to God,
hold on to his truth,
and hold onto God's promises,
they are all true,
you can trust him,
so let go of the world,
and hold onto God!